Your chance, just keep it for yourself.

Tuesday, September 30, 2008

Comp went crazy. hahs
today Vanessa no come school.
nb lor, ps me again.
but my BEST ahma sit with me.
nothing to say about the lesson.
english, watch show.
recess, actually stay in class.
but ang kk come in.
then bo bian jiu go out.
me and jiamin eat.
emaths, nothing happen. as usual.
history, went mdm lee de class cause ross no come.
me ahma purposely go late. haha.

my bro beside, correcting my grammar.
haha.
continue tmr cause got something to say/scold

♥ @ 7:43 PM

Monday, September 29, 2008

today, sian.
sit at the back.
beside is vanessa.
cause i have a mission to do by someone.
English, Vanessa move infront cause tony wan sit there.
of course mark paper.
the rest de period all forget le.
then amaths, Ms Arnita never come.
Jiamin sabo me, go tell my BEST ahma i hit table.
then she from BEST to BAD. jkjk.
then Jiamin Vanessa Angie Rachel May Marco Gina all watch free show de.
then Ahma jiu move sit beside me cause Vanesssa dun wan sit or whatever.
I hit the door with leg, she scold.
I ask Vanessa go away, she dun wan cause she dun let me hit.
Marco jiu dare me hit the door, so hit lor.
then Ahma jiu stare at me and threaten me wor.
The three of them always threaten me de wor. haha

♥ @ 5:15 PM

Thursday, September 25, 2008

Morning, i should be in good mood BUT
because of some ppl had irritated me.
1st person : you ask me and vanessa move and i already said dun wan.
And still keep on saying and saying.
So i keep on and on saying dun wan.
then what?
continue ask me to move,
then need me shout de meh?
damn irritating and piss off de ok?
AND
where we sit is where we want and not you say de.
you ask me move and so i must move?
so funny wor.
2nd person : ask me one thing and i already said le.
then teacher jiu scold, say talk again jiu change place.
and you jiu ask again.
then teacher jiu scold.
and hai dao _ also kana scolded.
and teacher ask me and may move.
3rd person : Teacher is ask me and MAY change place,
not me and VANESSA.
Thats Vanessa original place not hers.
ok? please la hor.

Vanessa and my BEST ahma ask me relax. How relax?

After Chemistry, went 3E6 wait for my BEST ahma.
Me Vanessa talk to her.
During Chemistry, Marco ask me to hit the cupborad until bleeding.
He dare me. And why not?
Only Jiamin Vanessa Zhimei dun let ma.
that Vanessa heard le jiu hit me.

dun think i never or hear anything lar.
I saw it and damn piss off.
~
I swear I wont break my promise.
cause the promise is good for you.
*someone ask me vent all my anger here cause she dun wan me to punch again.

♥ @ 3:22 PM

Monday, September 22, 2008

ANYONE GUESS WHAT DAY IS TODAY? HAHA. JKJK

English,
went lib
all doing work expect me and Vanessa.
haha.
Chem,
forget fo what le.
History,
take back test paper.
English agn,
went ava.
sit outside cause the boys were making noise.
went in, Sinyee sit beside me.
and bully starts.
then i nv pull Sinyee de band
and she go pull mine.
nb. wtf lor.
went back,
find my BEST ahma, ZM
but her class havent end so,
go hit the wall damn hard cause i damn angry
went outside, talk/complain
as she is my BEST ahma.
then that kpo de Vanessa jiu come out.
sian.
Mother tongue,
sit with ZM.
History agn,
wrote inference qns.
Physics,
forget do what le.
Amaths,
sit with ZM again.
and u go her blog, she complain le.
haha.
do other question cause finish the qns she gave.
then that Vanessa jiu come sit beside me.
then copy copy.
then Arnita jiu say ok, we can sit like that.
LOLS.
before that, i sit there, she dun let.

after School, went mama shop buy potato chips.
then i pay, they eat.
haha. jkjk.
went in school.
Jiamin eat Rachel eat Marco eat Vanessa eat ZM eat.
that Rachel no give face de.
i feed her eat she dun wan eat.
-.-

if thats the ending,

for what have the beginning.

i sms you but you see your phone,

but you still didnt reply.

nb.

i gave it to you and you use it for others.

i can even count it for you.

i really thought only me but its not the truth.

i really dun know what to do and

feel hopeless now.

♥ @ 6:36 PM

Saturday, September 20, 2008

I SWEAR I WONT EVER EVER NEVER NEVER SMS YOU ANYMORE SINCE YOU REPLIED THAT FUCKING MSG.

And
my hand hurts.
red le.
tmr become blueblack le.
why?
cause i hit something damn damn hard

♥ @ 10:32 PM

actually,
today i should be in a very good mood.
but~
due to one idiotic person and
makes my mood worst.
feel so fustrated about it.
AND
my family all kana by me today.
haiz.
almost everday.

replied once and no reply anymore.
wtf.

sorry to anyone who was kana by me.

♥ @ 10:17 PM

Morning,

meet Jiamin Gina at 10.

saw Gina at traffic light.

and thought someone in bus is arnita,

cause the clothes that the person wearing is same as her.

eat at round market.

don saw us.

hahs.

talk.

and guess wad,

that Gina accidentally pushed till my hand,

and my drink dropped.

tuition.

then went tm de ArtServe to see something,

homed.

Just because of you.
Every message that I received wished that it was you,
but you disappointed me.
Nothing could make me happy.
And just because of one sms from you,
makes me becoming like that.

You say wad lazy,

no matter what i replied.

Did you ever think of me?

I really care about you.

the day i hatred the most is coming round the corner in less in 48hrs.

♥ @ 7:34 PM

Friday, September 19, 2008

chem

then pe.

fucking angry.

then go foryer find Zhimei.

i see chang heng face keep want to laugh de.

that zhimei hor, so slow de.

i walk till general office,

she still wearing skirt,

then i go pull her.

haha.

then changed,

went back class.

Vanessa sit Jiamin place awhile.

she idiot de lor.

the ear ring wear for two days le,

then she realised it.

she jealous de. hahs.

english, sian.

see Jiamin and rachel do essay writing.

that angie joke alot, no wonder is joker.

recess, eat with Vanessa.

then they eat with us.

then sit beside Mdm Wang

and she didn't realise that me and Vanessa sitting beside her.

emaths, rachel angie playing bingo.

how old liao still play.

hahs. jkjk.

went airport with Jiamin gina rachel.

i DID study hor.

ltr zhimei say i no study de cause i been telling her that i can't concentrate.

recently very moodly.

so sorry if i suddenly from happy till angry or happy till sad.

i also dun know what happen actually,

maybe because of ...

Everyone ask me what happen,

especially her and her. =)

but still, i didnt say.

cause i dun know how say out,

i dun know how express anything out.

♥ @ 8:50 PM

Wednesday, September 17, 2008

reach home,
bro not at home jiu blog lor.
haha.
reach home,
cousin already went home.
heng. haha
gonna study soon.
someone gng be surprise cause i study
and first time ever.
just because someone ask me study
so jiu study lor.
haha

sms you didn't reply.

but jiu talk to me only.

waste my sms but nvm cause unlimited ma.

sorry, but hope you know whats the reason that i do that.

cause i have no choice but to do that.

♥ @ 5:32 PM

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

eoy coming soon.
omg lor.
found myself a tutor.
haha.
teach me can vomit blood de.
and once, she ask me take one bowl for her to vomit blood
haha.

WANGZHIMEI, I BLOGGED LE.

since you say and you do it bah.
must i listen to you?
not only me and someone too.
~
guess also no use.
you ask me lor.
maybe see my mood how,
and will i tell you not.
tell you things and what,
i ask you something,
ask me shut up.
fuck.
~
i promise you dun say,
but you seems dun trust me.
i just bluff you only,
and you say that,
but luckily i didn't too.

♥ @ 9:13 PM

Sunday, September 07, 2008

sorry,
but that good for you.
i don't know what to do,
but only that is the best.

past,
you hate me because i did that,
and now,
i have no choice but to do that agn,
in order for you to go back agn.

i really can't think of anything but that.
i really don't wish to do that but no choice.
thats the only way.

sorry _.

♥ @ 9:15 PM

Friday, September 05, 2008

I think I going to decide on something that i impossible will complete it for sure,
maybe my whole life wont complete it,
but maybe if i have the determination to do it
and since today the thing happen,
make me gave up on everything le.

would that person ever know what i did?

Never.

because that person doesn't care for me at all.

yesterday i told you that i'm sick and you at least reply me,

but today once i told you i'm sick and you didn't reply.

i think i really gave up on you totally le.

because of you, i gave up alot of things

and now, i gave up on you.

now i already had nothing to think about anymore.

maybe alone is the best for me.

i dont want care anything including studies le.

the most get scolded again only what.

♥ @ 10:15 PM

today _ come my house.
sian
10plus come
but go down eat le then up
comp do work
then went in play psp
actually wan study de
but in the end psp
then went off at 3plus

dun know why now so emo

just because saw something

not anything but just something i dun wish to see

but still saw it in the end

no need care what this all about

because it not related to anyone

♥ @ 8:46 PM

Thursday, September 04, 2008

morning woke up 9am
by my cousin's call
went to prp
rent bike
1 single 1 double
then the double de
from me and cousin's husband
to me and cousin
to cousin and her husband
they teach me
and wanted me to cylce by myself
so torturing lor.
2hrs cycling
dun let me rest
but the most tired de not the three of us
and is Mocha
cause he is running
and once he like wanted to climb up the bike
because he dun wan run le
then home, bathe
went out eat.
east coast
actually very hungry cause whole morning nv eat
then in the end very full.

♥ @ 6:53 PM

Wednesday, September 03, 2008

I really dun know is it right or wrong.
I did something
but i regret now
and
and
and
i spent $90 on something in just 1 hours

♥ @ 8:16 PM

Monday, September 01, 2008

I don't know should I say the meanings of the dates in my msn pm. SHE ask me to say if I wanted her to stop saying that all the dates are for Vanessa. So what i not happy with you. And is you only. The rest I very happy leh. So? I very very very happy wiht someone and that someone is not you and not her is SHE. At least she told me something. If you wan me to list out all the things that i not happy with you? I can! You wan say me les or whatever also nvm because I know I'm not and at leadt someone believe that I'm not. Not like you, keep saying. I don't really think that you need me but I also don't need you. At least all i need is a trust from one friend and that one friend won't be you and never be you. But now not only one friend. At least some trust me and i happy le

Since it happen till like this le. And i dont really know what going to be. And I think that the tuition I will quit le bah. One person ask me to do whats right. Three ask me quit. And Jiamin, you sitting in the middle. And I don't really know what to do. Maybe quit is the best.
Sorry, Jiamin
I really don't know whats happening now. No one knows

♥ @ 10:54 AM

- Seriously I am not angry wih you. I know you always will get lost when no one around and you coming alone. But I thought that you can't make it so I didn't blame you but ended up you in Angie house. And I thought only Gina going to do cake. And I ask Jiamin do cookies and she say anyhing but i know she can't too but i also know she going Angie house and i didn't blame her too. But the ONLY one is HER, I ask her come she say cannot then ended in Angie house too. And what, she say until I know the WHOLE group is there doing the cakes like that. Please la hor, from the start, I only know Gina Sheeleng Jiamin at Angie house. The rest? I won't know if I didn't call. At least those who help me on Thursday know their limit of doing it. They do one at a time and not all together.
- I swear I was abit angry with you but not so much as _. I don't know you know who or not. Some know only. And, she thinks I have to listen to what she say? I wont listen. I fuck care what she say. At least I know whats the answer in my heart. Because the more I care what she say, it shows that I am guilty with.
I do the cookies until so late and so early wake up to melt the chocolate. And that is what i get in return? Throw away the cookies? Since you all already do the cakes and for what still want me continue doing it? Wasting my electricity ah?fuck. I sms-ed you asking you where to put the cookies and you the one didn't reply me and you ask me how to give the teachers? Hello! Please. You didnt reply my sms and you ask me that question? wtf.
- I don't know why, I still seems to protect anyone in some kind of ways secretly. And no one knows what happening except myself cause I was like one of them, dun know how to express my feeling.
- You all had really forced me to me end. One day, I think I would be like someone, ending my life.
One: keep saying her name. You say i like her but i think you the one like her bah. only know saying her name, like in your mind only her name.
Two: keep using her name threaten me. Fuck. One day, i become bad also because of you all. The more you all want her look after me, the more i will purposely do it de.
Three: call my name and I turn my head jiu say that word.Fuck. You also like the first one ah? You should like her than her.
- To be truth, I don't really know should it be the ending again or not. First and Second time already happened. Now the third time. I can't imagine what it will become. This time is better, got someone with me. but I would rather that I alone than she with me. Maybe just because you all don't know whats happening to her only. Maybe you all know le, it would be good for her. But seriously, I wanted to tell you all but she don't want me say so I can't help it. Just I wish everything was dream/lie including her _. So what I _ for her? If you all know whats happening to her now, I'm sure that you all will also care for her. If you all know the matter, I think nothing would be happening but ... Just because I know and so I _ her and so I became a L? Joke? then if you all know le, does it shows that you all also L?

♥ @ 10:22 AM