Tuesday,
Band was boring..
Went band with afini and calvin.
Then had to help percussion to bring down their instrument.
Is like wanting us girls to die.
Cause girls like no strength..
I can’t take but I still help..
So so heavy..
Teacher wanted us to stay watch performance.
Then we like talking that we wanted to see how lousy band played.
Damn sian.
First day, first hour, I already can’t stand it.
Thinking how to survive.
Wednesday
As usual, forget everything.
Not sure is it because I don’t want to remember anything that includes someone.
Meiyu and I did something wrong. Oops
We like playing with Mei Sean‘s ruler,
And suddenly, the ruler breaks.
100% is accidentally.
Gonna return her the same one but don’t know where got.
And, Ahma thought I cut so threw it through the window.
And now, how I’m gonna buy the same one?
After school, went with Sheeleng.
Sorry, Sheeleng.. somesort of late.
To fp then tm.
Bought some things.
Giving people and not ownself keep. Of course.
Thursday
Quite sian.. Due some reason.
Just remembered that, during mother tongue was angry with someone..
But that person still don’t know I’m angry with.
Amath, WANG ZHIMEI make me angry and she say,
I angry very funny then keep laughing. Sot de leh.
And make me angry and laugh till I very hard to breathe.
After school, stayed back with jiamin.
She clever can. Ask me go buy food then ownself..
Till reaching 4 went home.
Reach home, mum say today so early come back.
She think I wish de meh.
Nothing to do so go home ma.
And, 7 plus.
My mood was being spoilt by someone.
And I feel like just kill myself and won’t feel anything.
Friday
Morning, reach school at 630.
went class, use wifi.
hehe.
clever girl.
not so good mood.
stupid ahma, reach school jiu keep disturb me.
hah.
actually wanted to cry but...
forget..
English, funny.
Mrs Sim called GuoHao as jc for the second time.
haha.
keep laughing. then since ahma ask me dont laugh so i dont laugh.
then ahma ask me hit her head so i hit.
hahah. dont know why phyllis laugh. hah.
then recess, stay at class with may and rachel.
amaths, dun know why that sot de keep laughing leh.
hahah..
obviously fucking angry..
after school, eat then go rachel's house..
what happened to me only one person know. another one is 'tou kan' de.
as for another one, didnt reply me so i not intend to tell her le..
I shouldn’t have thought that you treated me as one.
Is like you got them jiu ps me.
I just can’t stand it.
One day, so many things happening to me,
You think that I’m able to take it all?
I can’t because I’m not strong enough .
Why can’t I just have my friends?
You can have yours but I can’t?
You got them jiu can le what.
Not meh.
Whenever I’m with you and you saw your friend,
Whenever near your friends and you keep talking with them.
Why can you be angry but why can’t I?
And I feel so extra.
Really extra.
Since you had already showed me that they are more important,
And so be it!
I really got nothing to say.
You made me damn disappointed with what you had done.
And, it will never ever be my turn.
I regret!!
I just can’t let it go like what Ahma did.
I can’t!!
How you wanna me let it go.
I pretty miss you a lot.